FROM SEEKING ATTENTION TO FINDING MYSELF

Hi Guys!

I hope you’re doing fantastic—here I am, doing amazing as always!

Today, I’m slightly off my usual schedule, but there’s one thing I couldn’t skip: writing something for you, my wonderful blog readers. So, here we are. Let’s dive into something intriguing—something many of us feel but rarely talk about.

Seeking attention.

It’s a strange thing, isn’t it? We all want to be noticed, appreciated, and loved. Personally, I’ve struggled with this for so long. Let me share my story.

At first, I thought being nice to everyone was the key. I went out of my way to be kind, hoping it would attract people who’d want to be my friends. Instead, it had the opposite effect. People took advantage of my kindness, leaving me hurt and confused.

It wasn’t just acquaintances; even within my family, I felt unseen. Growing up, I silently competed with my sister. She has this natural charm—a smile that lights up a room—and everyone adored her. My uncles doted on her, and I felt left out. I tried to be nice, thinking it would make them love me more, but instead, they mocked me for being "too nice."

So, I decided to try something new. I thought, If being nice doesn’t work, maybe being a baddie will. I started doing things I wouldn’t normally do—acting out of character—just to seem cool. I wanted people to see me differently, to value me. But that didn’t work either. Instead, I attracted the wrong crowd, and once again, I was left feeling hurt and alone.

At some point, I realized something important: maybe the problem wasn’t them. Maybe it was me—not being true to myself.

When I finally embraced who I truly am—not overly nice, not trying to be cool, just me—I discovered something magical. I met the most amazing people. People who loved me for me. They became my safe space, protecting me from the harshness of the world I used to face alone.

My advice to you? If you’ve ever felt like I did, don’t try to be someone you’re not. Be yourself. Show your quirks, your weirdness, your true colors. The right people will see the beauty in you and cherish it.

Thank you for sticking with me through this little journey. I hope my story inspires you to embrace who you are. Until next time, stay amazing!

P.S. To make this post more fun, here are a few random pictures from my day:

A mirror selfie from the bathroom—don’t judge! All you can see are my hands and phone, but it’s something.
My office, where I’ve been sitting all day. I only got up to go to the bathroom!
My computer screen, where I was watching cooking videos—don’t we all love those?
A picture of my calendar that reminds me of my agronomist roots.

Love you all, and thank you for being here. Byeee! 💕

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